I was out one night
When I realized I couldn't feel the pain
I was with a friend
When I understood there wasn't any pain
I was laughing and smiling
When I thought about how this felt normal
I was coming home
When I smirked and felt warm inside myself
I was coming inside
When I lingered remembering the night
I was taking off my shoes
When I breathed in and out hoping to take in the feeling
I was going up the stairs
When I tripped and fell over
I was in my room
When I took out the blade
I was feeling so happy
When I put it back without actually cutting
I was on top of the world
When I went to sleep without hurting
I was feeling amazing
When I finally fell asleep