Remember when I said I'd be here forever?

You asked me not to kill myself and I replied never.

Call me weak, Call me selfish, I'm sorry, I surrender.

Let me go, Fade away, Into the darkness I remember.

My mother gave me my life, I did not choose it.

So let it be my choice to live it or my choice to lose it.

Some days I try to smile, but I just end up in tears.

Only the blade is so sweet to take away my fears.

I wish I could grow numb to pain and how it feels.

Something always opens my wounds never allowing me to heal.

Some days I try to be strong, but I just end up weak.

Now even your kisses can not take the tears from my cheeks.

The brightness of the colors now look dull to me.

Even when the sun is shining, grey is all I see.

The familiar blueness of the sky fades into the grass.

And when I look into the ocean, all I see is a black mass.

My head is always lowered, my eyes are downward cast.

I wish I had time to think, but inside I'm dying too fast.

I wish I could be strong like you, but I am too weak to last.

Just smile and remember as you look back on our past.