It Makes Me See

I look at you from a distance

And my world stops.

Damn the sun

It makes you so bitterly clear to me.

Why must one glimpse of you

Simply make all of me cease?

My breath, my darling, I’m suffocating.

Please pull away, disappear.

Turn off the sun

I’m begging you.

Please, before I see the one you really love

Next to you

And loving you right back.

You have forgotten me.

I can see it on your achingly beautiful face.

And yet, I am damned to remember you

Every worshipped gesture and step

Every word and embrace

Every kiss.

And I don’t exist to you.

I can see it.

I can see it.

And so damn the sun. Damn it because

It makes me see how incredibly happy you are

Without me.