I gaze upon your face every day, and yet you never know it. Or perhaps you do, maybe you do, I can never tell. All I want to tell you though, is how much I love you. I can never tell you enough times how much I love you, and even when I do tell you, I feel as if I never told you enough. I never did tell you enough, not when it mattered anyway. Now, no I don't have you anymore, and I realize what I fool I was to have lost you. Why can't you return to me? You were so strong, you were my lifeline, you were the one that held me down, you were my grounding, you were my reason for survival. Why did you have to leave me? You were the strong one; I should have been the one who left. Every day I gaze upon your soft sweet face and wonder why. Why it had to be you and not me.

Why can't you come back to me? I say the words, I profess my love to myself so many times, every day I repeat it, as if those three simple words, contorted into all forms of complexity, all matter of verbosity can bring you back. Even though I know they can't. I've lost you forever, but I'd do anything to have you back right now, I'd do anything to tell you one last time that I love you, I'd do anything to tell you goodbye, to apologize for all the times that I've messed up. I've messed up so many times; it's what led to this. I feel so responsible for this, this is all my fault, and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't hate myself for it. You're the one that had so much potential, but yet it's me that's left here, me, the weak one, the one who's got nothing to live for. Not like what you had, you had everything, I have nothing left anymore, not since I lost you.

I need you so much my love. You were the man of my dreams, and I want you so much. Everyone expects me to be so strong, after everything that I've gone through, but I'm not. I'm so weak without you to support me; I'm so weak without you my love. Come back to me, shield me from the pain like you always used to. You even tried your hardest to shield me from the pain as you left me. You should have never left me. You should have never gone out that night; it's all my fault. You would have never left if we hadn't fought. I'm so sorry, it should be me that's gone, not you, I'm the one that deserves everything you got. I've given up now; I can't even be strong, what was your last wish for me. I tried, I tried so hard to be strong, but I just cant, not without you here, not without your love to keep me going.

It's why I'm joining you now. I'm joining you my love, and we can be happy again, we can be together again. I can't go on anymore without you, and it's what drove me to do this. Now it doesn't have to be me, the one who should be where you are, now we're both there. Two men who lost everything can find each other again. Just like how we met. My love, I'm coming for you, so quickly, I'm coming for you, and I can't wait till I see you. Now I can tell you how sorry I was in person, now I can make up for everything, right every wrong that I ever did to you. Now I can tell you how much I love you as much as I want, and you're here to listen, it's not talking, weeping to your picture, now I'll be here with you, now you'll be here to embrace me, to tell me everything's going to be alright, like you always used to do. You were so strong, you made up for my weakness. I'm coming now my love, I'm coming..