Random study hall. Wasting time. I've been having a writer's block so I just put ramblings here. Very little sense, and yet it says something about stress in a way.I guess.

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Insanity.

Not as good as it should be. Do better. Work harder. It's not enough. Where's the effort? What are you doing? That's not a worthy grade! Fix it! Work harder! Do better! Not as good as it should be! No child of mine. Can do better than this. Worthless, useless, pathetic, sad.

Go away! Stop it! I'm not what you want me to be. I can't be what you want. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Just listen, .I'm sorry.

Depression.

Come little 'll take care of you.

We'll make you wanted. We'll make you loved. Just listen to us - and we'll listen to you. Come child, come with us.

I don't want to be alone. I don't want to be used. I'm so afraid, I'm sorry for what I've done. Don't hurt me, please. Watch over me. Protect me.

Of course, child, of course we'll protect you.

No, you can't. You're in my head, you're not here, leave me be! I want real help, from real people, from real friends. It's life, that's that - you fail, you trip, you hide away and it's all over. But I don't want help from something nonexistent, it's not my style.

If you didn't want help, then fine. We won't kneel to your aid, we won't give you every wish you've ever wanted. Foolish child. Foolish fate, we can fill you with crimson..crimson hate.

Blood.

Ashes.

Burned.

Swirling darkness, it's out of control. Free me from the voices, free me from the pain. Make it go away.I just to leave me..That feeling of being unwanted, the feeling of being alone, the feeling of being hated.

I don't want to be hated.

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ShadowSpirit '03