Paper smile,
Clumsily drawn.
Easily erased,
Revealing the pain underneath.
Constructed by a child,
Torn down by hell's angels,
The hope I once had is dying away,
Slipping through my empty hands.

Falling

In my reflection,
There are a million pieces.
Shards of me, crashing down.
Bleeding sweet sorrow,
Scented of dying roses.
Slowly shattering,
Meeting the ground,
That was never so far away.

So

Running away from me,
Speeding along,
Quick, before I end up consumed,
By whatever's eating me from the inside out.
Solitude chases me,
I can't win,
I'm giving up hope, all hope.

Slowly

Digging through the remains of my childhood,
Searching for that one sweet memory.
So many rotten photographs clutter my youth,
I can't seem to find my way out,
Trapped in a pile of torn memories.
I know there must be one left,
I can smell the sweet innocents,
Even among this pain.
Nathan...

When

Freezing over,
Just like a small pond in the winter.
Is there any thin part of me?
Can anyone break through?
Will I be stuck in this vile water forever?
Drowning so quickly,
I can't find a breathe,
But even though I want to,
I can't find death either.

Can

I'm reaching out for you,
Am I really here?
Do I appear as a vibration off in the distance?
Voices of my past are haunting me,
Pushing me further into this dark void.
I can't find my way up,
I don't have the strength to climb.
I'm searching for a new hope,
But I don't know,
Can you even see me here?

I

Diving into madness,
Leaving my sanity behind without a trace.
Rageful monsters surging up,
Trying to break through me,
Trying to win me over,
Will I be defeated?
Inner turmoil slowly disintegrating me,
Dissolving my mind,
I can't believe I'm still alive.

Finally

Beautiful ruby,
Slowly melting before my eyes.
Amazing, inspiring,
Dying.
It represents everything I've been living,
I can see myself in it,
Like a mirror,
Reflecting who I really am.
Putting my unsteady dreams out into public.
It's like being trapped behind my own shadow,
Locking my own shackles,
Throw the key in the ocean.

Crash

I could dive,
But I know death is a far away pleasure,
A sinister demon waiting for my fall.
Midnight watching my every move,
Fingers slip,
I can't hold on forever.
My pain is riveting out,
Dancing among the crimson seeds I spread.
Awaiting my death.

To

Running towards the black light,
Shattering my future with a searing pain.
No matter how hard I search,
I can't find myself in this rotten corpse I live in.
Trails of blood show me the way,
I can see it right before my eyes...
Waiting for me.

My

Clean white daisies,
Bobbing in the breeze.
Splatter, splash,
Staining in red.
Telling a tale of a heart-wrenching death.
I've finally reached the end of this never-ending story.

Death?