I hate the fact that I feel guilty
The truth is I know I did nothing wrong
Unlike you.
Yet I sit here ashamed of my feelings.
I'm scared that you'll see what I truly think
And hate me.
Why Do I Care?
Why do you have such a hold over me?
When the truth is
You're barely there.
It's sad that after everything I still yearn for:
You're love.
Why? Why? Why?
I wish I didn't give a shit
It would hurt so much less if I didn't
But how can I?
How can I look at you,
And not wish I could relive the past?
I Feel Guilty
It's because you think I'm punishing you
But I'm not
I swear to God I'm not
Maybe I should be
It probably doesn't matter.
Because in the long run
It's all just a screwed up cycle
You will do something horrible
And I will do something worse
And then I just feel guilty again.