Let me tell you a story,
For once without a happy ending.
That's my life.
A handful of sand,
Slipping away, grain by grain.
A beautiful rainbow,
Carve my name into it,
Watch it bleed.
Cruel smile,
Lighting up a black night,
Shine in red,
Stain me into the spotlight.
No one understands!
No one understands!
No one understands!
See me here?
Hear my screams,
Breaking the glass that surrounds me,
Come kill me.
Single word ringing in my head,
A constant bell,
Deep in it's sorrowful sound,
Crying out "solitude, Solitude,"
And singing this petty lullaby,
Singing me to sleep,
Forever sleep,
Waiting for me,
Reaching for me,
I want it.
My own standards,
Thrown up too high
I can't reach it
I can't reach it.
Jealously,
My monster, my friend,
Eating away inside,
Thriving off my tender, delicate friendships,
Tearing them down in my heart.
I can't believe I allow
Such nonsense in my head,
Such pain swirling in my heart,
A storm, it's like a storm,
Tearing away everything,
Covering me in a darkness
I can't find the light
Help me find the light!
I can't forget myself,
I can't leave me behind,
Stuck in the dark,
Always!
Damn the light,
It blinds me, It hurts me,
It shows me the painful truth,
It reveals my utter loneliness,
My longing, my hate, my rage, my pain.
Always pain.
Never have I known anything else,
It's always been there,
Always.
Why should I try to escape?
Wouldn't it be better to just leave?
I'd choose numbness over pain any day,
Everyday.
My life is just like paper,
Tearing, ripping,
Shred it to bits.
A brick house build on a paper foundation,
Looks nice, sure, looks steady,
But it's about to fall.
Watch the glamour shudder,
Watch it fall, watch it crumble,
Laugh.
Humans get such pleasure from other people's pain,
Watching other things fall.
Sick, cruel, wrong.
But they shun me,
They disregard my believes,
They don't realize I've lost my mind.
A red, ruby river,
Running down a pale white field,
Enter into a pool of blood,
Footprints will show you how to get there,
How to live there,
How to find peace in the sting of a razor.
I'm falling, collapsing,
Drowning inside myself.
How could I want to get up,
When the ground is so close?
I can't get up,
It's a dream I'll never achieve.
Just give up,
Dreams are fake,
I can't live with them so far above me,
Teasing me,
But I know I can't make it.
Watch me falling,
Do you even care to catch me?
Watch me suffer,
Golden velvet shimmering in the brilliant sun,
Watch a ruby melt,
Closing the world in red.
Red...
This is the end.