Watch the pain following me,
The cruel dark has been covering me all these years,
I look around, loneliness,
Masked by the black I live in.
I can scream, I can cry, I can bleed,
Nothing can remove this constant buzz,
This forever pain taking over me.
I see shards of my life,
Raining down upon me,
Slowly puncturing one by one,
Deflating any love,
Forever gone.

I can't stop my dead body from twitching,
I can't control the lifeless corpse,
Slowly letting go of hope.
I can watch from afar,
But I can't take the pain away,
Hells shackles bind me up,
So tight,
I can't breathe.

Life slowly whithering away,
Dying down to a fine, invisible dust.
I hate everything about myself,
This inability for true pleasure,
Nothing but blackness lives inside.
I can't cry this nagging pain away,
I can't bleed away all these lies.
How much longer can I tear myself down?
Where are you?
I need you now.

Don't ask me why I cry,
You don't know the shit I work through
Every day.
Just the same,
How could you care?
I'm a piece of broken coal,
Charred, burnt, ruined.
Don't bother to save me,
You don't exist.

See me loosing my mine?
Talking to the computer,
An empty voice ringing in my head.
Forever striving on my solitude,
Reaching out,
Your hand so close, so warm,
I touch solid ice,
Clear and cruel,
No sign of melting.

Take a picture of me,
I won't be in it.
I'm undead.
I've died inside so long ago,
My corpse is wandering away,
Rotting pieces of my soul falling, dying,
I'm unable to stop it,
Rushing towards my own death,
Though the air feels so solid around me,
It's just the pain,
Annoying chain pulling me down.
Drowning in my own ocean,
This is my story;
Why can't I rewrite my ending?
I end here.

Moving on,
I can here Death's symphony beating in my head,
I can loose myself.
Peaceful lakeside,
Raging purple water,
Snowflakes freezing in midair.
Naked, revealed,
Death's arms right below the surging water,
Waiting to take me away.
Redemption.
Time to leap,
Break through these metal shackles.
Water hits me like a thousand lights,
I can feel it turning crimson.
Claim my awaited pain,
Embrace... my suicide.