I poked myself in the arm with a needle. Damn it. Nothing. I felt no different than I had before. No blood spurted from my arm, making me feel bad. I wanted to cry. Nothing at all.

In books, pain was described as, 'Stabbing hot knives shooting messages from my ____ to my brain.' But I felt none of that. But then again, I didn't know what a stabbing hot knives felt like. Did they feel good, like your mother saying you could have a whole tub of ice cream that day. Or bad, like when your grandmother just died. I wouldn't know, I can't feel pain. I am immortal.

Sorrow I can feel, and happiness and anger, of that I could not do without. But pain? That, I have no feeling for. I could be crushed under a car, and I would feel nothing.

Many people would think 'Pain why is he sorry if he can't feel pain.' But I know better. Have you ever felt like you wanted to hurt yourself. Like you were angry and wanted to punish yourself . Like you were so sad that you wanted to pull your hair and scream and yell until you made yourself hoarse. Well I can't, well I COULD but I would be pointless, I wouldn't feel any pain, or anything to make me feel any better. Never have I ever felt anything that would even resemble what I imagine as pain.

I feel sorry for myself. I'm not ashamed to admit it. I will never be complete, forever I will go on missing a part of me until the sun explodes. And then what, after a couple years of seeing people die, I will spend a couple million years watching the earth evolve, oh that is interesting. I can see myself already, "Look, its a thing, I think it's moving." And that is how I will spend my never ending life. And I mean never. Like for eternity. Can you imagine that? Forever, it would be a whole cycle, over and over and over and over!!! Never ever ending. It will start to drive me mad!! Then I will be a crazy never dying fool.

People say, that death is the worst thing that could happen to you. They're wrong to live forever is. As I will. I don't know if I will continue to age, and get older and older looking until I can't move. That would suck! Or will I stop physically aging at one point? There are so many things I don't know. But I suppose I have forever to figure them out. And I mean FOREVER.