If She Knew

She doesn't know what she wants
She doesn't know what to do
When she gets what she wants
she finds her longing wasn't true
Crying unseen tears
she wants to be normal like you

She says "Why can't I know
how I want my life to go?
Why I don't I believe
that people can care for me?
Why can't I make up my mind..
will I still be this way forever in time?"

She wants to walk
she wants to run
So wants to end her life
with her father's gun
But she wants to live
and once again have fun

She says "Why can't I know
how I want my life to go?
Why I don't I believe
that people can care for me?
Why can't I make up my mind..
will I still be this way forever in time?"

She hates the truth
she hates to lie
She hates the way
that her life flies
She wants to live
yet she wants to die

She says "Why can't I know
how I want my life to go?
Why I don't I believe
that people can care for me?
Why can't I make up my mind..
will I still be this way forever in time?"

She's alone
When she cries
She sees her scars
and she wonders why
she ever did anything
why she ever tried..

I said "Why can't I know
just how I want my life to go?
Why don't I believe
that people care for me
I just want to know why
that I ever even tried..."