Pain.

The gnawing ache in the pit of my guts

I squirm and cry

Tears oozing from my heart

As I'm clueless

Not sure where I stand.

Floating into insecurity, uncertainty

Why do I bother again?

Grit my teeth, angry

Angry… angry at whom?

Not sure at who.

Scream.

Feel like running outside,

Into the snow, the cold

Sleep might be an option

The darkness shutting my eyes

Not sure if I want that.

Short of breath

Tired and awake, too much of both

Wanting to reach out, too stubborn

Too scared

Not sure what I am.

Cry.

Give me my answer

Any answer maybe, but one at least

Waiting is something that can last forever

As do feelings sometimes

Not sure if mine will.

Tell me what you feel

Look into my eyes and don't lie

Don't hide, are you scared?

Make a wrong decision, why don't you

Not sure if you won't.

Reach.

Shaking in myself

Waiting to know, scared to hear

Silly feeling to want to laugh out loud

Inside my heart cries

Not sure what will win.

Pool of extremes boiling in itself

Would you just yell already

What you want

Show me, hold me, care for me

Not sure of anything anymore.

Except you.