Thankful for All You've Done, a Friendship fanfic

I dedicate this to all that have made my life living. All my friends, the family that’s actually been there and even the short acquaintance's I’ve come across. You’ve done more than you can ever hope to have done and I’m thankful for all you’ve done. Also this is a reposting of the poem for I felt that I shouldn’t deny others my work. Just because I don’t like it doesn’t mean others will feel the same way.
Thankful for All You Did for Me

Before we met

I was a mess

No direction nor will

My life was at a standstill

My life seemed to only get worse

everything I touched only got hurt

I wanted to end that pain

the pain that arrived when ever I came

Why did this cancer start on my tips

So that everything I got attached

to would soon go away?

I only saw one answer to stop the death

with there only being just one more

It would be best and all can be content again

like before I entered their lives that day

I was so close to putting my wrist to blade

a noose around my neck from a high place

but then it started to fade

when I went to the screen that day

The midnight that shrouded my life

was pierced by your shining light

what few words seemed so insignificant

actually saved a life instead

Before we talked on that one day

my mind only could see one way

I thought getting attached to you

would only pain you more day by day

That’s why I thought I should get away

Something happened that came from the blue

I learned there was pain before I touched you

So instead of leaving and thinking it would fade away

I learned that there was strength that you made

In just a few days, I found a new strength inside

My heart, my kokoro, my corozon that you made

I was from that day indebted to you

and in the best way

You never realized, when you shared your pain

mine stayed, but wasn’t terribly bad that day

I found myself being selfish from way before those few days

I saw myself preventing you from repeating my mistake

Together we created a strength neither could see

even through the many miles we were by the others side

Mind, heart and soul, together going through all pain that reside

Making the other go that one more day

When your heart broke, mine cried with

even if we never told each other, that was stilled shared

When old memories that only brought pain came up

the other stayed there by you to pull you out of the mud

Then, what I couldn’t stand to hear that one day

was something, before we met, I would always say

You wished the this world never knew you to have came

That brought more unto, my heart’s bane

I cant let you feel that

the way I did before

For no one should blame themselves

for that uncontrolled

What you felt, was never meant for yourself to blame

The worst happen to the least deserving, the ones that suffer is where the blame is aimed

I know right now I’m not there, but someday I will for you anyway

because we share a bond, that started that one day

I never told you before, and I may regret that from now on

I probably seemed ungrateful, where that department was filled to the beyond

Just understand I’m afraid to share how I feel

Cause you don’t deserve to be slammed by all that pain

I’m really sad about the way I made you think me be

Selfish, Rude, Distant, that may be how I seem

I try to be anything but that, but if I am, then let me lament

I want to be there just for you, to let you know that your pain isn’t yours alone

I’m thankful for all your words

I hope to be there to do the same

Know your pain I want to take from you

as thanks for my new found strength

You lost that though it seems

Which makes both hearts bleed

Your awesome strength you don’t seem to see

So let me give some of my own, which you unlocked from me

Use my shoulder to cry on

even if not literally

Just know that I’m always there for you

just as you were there for me

Keep that light of in you

never let it fade

remember all that locked up strength

which I hope to help you free

Just rely on me, as I did you

For I’m thankful for all you did for you

Now let me show you that, help you from the pain

Use me to lean on, let me help you escape what almost became my bane

By,

Aya Shinomori