The Bloodshed Manuscript, Revised
This is my life, a dark cell with a plague
All I see anymore is blood red and black...
My sun is replaced with a massive black hole
Taking in all the light that's left in this room...
Days are numbered, the countdown begins
But my weakened bones were twice swept away…
I sense the intruder crossing my face
Looking in front of me, I watch him take over me...
I have arrived at last.
Why treat my arrival with weeping?
Do you not recognize the substance of this affair?
This is the side of me you've waited for all your life...
the one in no fear of the world that has grabbed you in
its clutches, ripping and tearing at your flesh and skin,
exposing your weak and terrified little self.
Little by little, the multitude ignores us,
They watch us beg for their mercy each passing day,
Paying no mind to the potential of our existence,
Instead, we grow weakened to society.
With all your life tortured and stolen,
What have you got to lose?
Let me make this critical decision for you.
Let the games begin, my dear.
numb when you've lost your body
When your sacred butterfly is stolen from you
Crude and greedy my peers remain to me
Only a matter of time before his true ascendance…
Hell, we all
wanted it this way
Aiming our bows to fire blanks
Yearning to rip more holes in the wall
To penetrate the blinding darkness in front of you
To uncover the other side of your problems
To find the answer you cringe to hold
Homicidal lunatics, you are
Stopping at nothing, for no single cost
Loving one another excessively
Without knowing love's verity...
I feel nothing in this root of evil...
I try to discover the light around me
It lays hidden from my tormented eyes
Forgive the sins upon me...
The lunatics are back this time around
To take you by your bantam little neck
And shove you through the blasted wall
Hoping to find some sort of resolution
To find a solitary clue to this dilemma
You fail to realize it was lost long ago
Before the bloodshed revealed
Before the mind was taken a slave
And was forced to believe
I am left caged in indecency
Please do not hold me amenable
I live in a psychotic memory
Wishing for deliverance...
Another arrogant lunatic awaits
Presumptions afloat within himself
Thinking too much about trivial things
Too much for his own damned good
No second-guessing is required
With blind judgment like his
Sickness wears thin in his soul...
I see the killers and buffoons
Running rampant in the village
Looks like you should protect your children
Secure them in your basement of darkness
Tell them the world is precarious
Tell them that fun comes with a cost
Dare show them the world you fear
And not the pure world we live
Dare influence a notion of succumbing to fright
And allow more buffoons to run rampant
Hell, we all wanted it this way
The wind hits my soul stronger than ever now
I may regain myself, absorbing light within
But his foreseen return remains ineluctable
There is one step of oblivion left ahead to take...
Oblivion! Ha! It is but a prize at the end of the
downward spiral. When everything that is
remotely good perishes into the night, when the
entire world and population is destroyed by greed,
oblivion awaits! Such a predictable outcome you
would embrace your will to live for.
You let the disease of the world consume you,
Holding a shred of hope that it will decease...
Remaining inert in your haven shall do no good.
Retaliate on your enemies for their heartless conduct.
One's will to live is without bounds
So why betray its meaning?
But the world failed to deliver tranquility...
It has only delivered you.
A sick and twisted demon, you are!
Why are you here? Where did you come from?
What precisely is your purpose?!
I shall never accede to your contorted ways.
It seems God has abandoned my soul... the only thing
left in this life is my very demise. But I shall not be
tempted in consenting sustenance from the Devil
himself, if he indeed rests with me tonight...
Forget all this compliant jargon you speak of!
Do you yearn to lie among the velvets?
Do you wish to jump through the fields at sunrise?
You've already had your goddamned chance
When you left yourself dazed in the tainted river
At the expense of the angel in your soul
Sucking up to you for your acceptance
You worthless, ravaged bunch of varmints!
I shall torch your souls with every little bit
of the misery that is left; the cruelty that is
merely reflections of my past.
Wear the garments of blood with pride,
you are now mine for the taking...
The summer's greens have left my retention,
Colors and sounds of joy are no longer present,
This world I know is slowly fading from sight...
My long trail to destruction must've already begun.
Why must it be now that I find my place in the graveyard...
Why must it be now that I break away from here...?
I have anticipated this fateful night
The night the victors cry for me
When you all bow down at my expense
Pledging your sublime existence to me
Displaying the cold truth of life itself
You are to be my puppets of destruction
Mangled and distorted by my own memories
No stones or twigs will break me now
I shall be your invincible soul-taker tonight
Hell, we all wanted it this way
I shall refrain from being my own slave,
wearing a trinket of vengeance in front
of my own people... my friends... my kin!
Give me myself back...
The end is already near, my friend
Your friends and kin have abandoned you
Let me be your eternal family!
Let us be the world's reverence!
The same world you lived in fear of
After all, it was me who redeemed your fate
Compensate it with your cooperation, dear
No necessities are left to indulge into!
No one has abandoned me
It is but another riddle of yours
The cruel tricks you wield through my body
The trivial fears you inflict through the people
Let me end your devilish rule over them
I have found the shard to cure our existence...
No spirit may support me, no God may bless me,
But I still carry the slender will I need!
Give me myself back...
Confident you are, for being an absolute fool!
My control over you will remain supreme, as
long as this world exists in your eyes! The life
you want to live is a lie in itself, and but a dream
in your dreary little mind... live the world of death
with me! Watch the puppets you encounter suffer
the decay of mortality... resist the lies you breathe!
Force them to inhale the truth! Show them the
world you've seen your whole life---
Give me myself back...!!!
Why did you
live in your never-ending fear of me,
the disease that abided you
for all of your years?
Why did you swallow the key that gave me life,
the same key that has
destroyed your being?
This taste of blood seems so refreshing
As I await the outcome of my existence
I plead to God for forgiveness now
I have defeated the evil... I have saved the world...
Bless me with all your love and peace...
You would destroy yourself... to destroy me?
Perhaps your will was stronger than I thought.
I, myself, would never forgive what you have done.
But my time is over now. Goodnight, my precious.
Wherever you go... I shall stay with you for eternity.
A little boy
runs outside my window
With balloons in his hand and lavish in color
Standing amongst the clouds of my new paradise
His mother runs to him, crying to her delight
Happy to stay with him till the end time.
The tears and songs come and go with me,
Remembering the days I was first given life...
But this is my new life... a luminous temple of grace
Where everything I see is embraced by the light.
Hell... we all wanted it this way.