This pain navigating through the course of my blood,
Searching for a way out,
Longing to bleed out poisonous scarlet upon the dying grass,
Free the demon raging inside.
My mind,
So black, so rotton,
Falling apart inside my skull.
Choking upon the charred smoke,
Of what was once my breathing soul.
To much pain have I taken upon myself,
Constantly pulling myself in further.
Soon I'll be stuck here,
No pinholes, no way to breathe.
I see the dark, I can feel the soil burning in my skin,
Poisoning my soul even further,
Tearing me apart, melting everything that mattered like a vile acid,
Burning, burning,
Forever etching it's way through my pale skin.
This is all I know.
I shudder to believe that, but I speak only the truth.
I can only bleed to make myself real,
I'm soiled,
I've been living in the black too long,
I can't even feel my own heart beating.
If I try and listen,
All I hear is an empty buzz,
Trying to consume everything.
Scratching my way through this endless void,
I'll never be good enough.
Here in the shadows,
I can't see the sun shining,
So I don't believe it will ever come out.
I can't stand it here,
The icy terror crawling through my veins,
Numbing everything,
I don't know anything.
I want to free this,
Stand inside my own red shower,
Laughing with glee,
I can feel the screams pouring out.
And I can feel again!
I can feel the hurt rushing out of me,
And I'm clean before I die.
That was all my life,
Before depression consumed me.