Flashes of light
Blackness consumes
Full of fright
As I sink in with doom
Can't live much longer,
this way
Won't get much stronger,
today
Dying, lying, trying
Sucked in the whirl wind
Trying to run
Wont live with this sin
or any other one
Falling to the top
Because of my lies
Why can't I stop,
hearing these cries?
Dying from me
I can't understand
Why you can't see
my decrepit hand?
It grasps for the lamp
that lights up the earth
My sweat makes it damp
As I evaluate my worth
I am the complete opposite of a narcissist
I loth my personality
I sometimes choke my wrists
to make myself happy
But still I haven't found the light
that would make me smile
It is not in sight
And I fear that it won't be for a long while...