From a distance, I admire you

In your absence, I dream of you

It’s hard to believe that you can’t see me

Even though I try to be all I can be

I’m probably, to you, a waste of air

How can that be when I’m not even there?

I can’t believe that you can’t feel me,

Although I am all I can be

Watching you, wanting you, but you will never know

Maybe you want me, but I’ll never know

I’m trying to be the best I can be,

But you still and always will have all of me

All of these emotions beating me like a flood

Here I am lying in a pool of my own blood

I can’t be all I am, for years I’ve tried

I want no one to find me until my tears dry

I failed, trying to be the best I can be

If I ever was, it’s too late for anyone to see...