A/N: *is sitting in my room, listening to Billy Talent and wishing I didn’t have to go to school tomorrow* Me thinks I need to kill myself and just get it over with already. *tummy hurts* Abandon all hope… that’s what all schools should say on them.  *grins… kinda…. Okay, so not really…* This is brought to you by: having a 30 paged paper due in less than a week and having nothing done on it because my teacher finally explained what we’re suppose to do on it this week… I’m going to fail 12th grade. Thanks a lot.

                                               

The Greatest Years of Our Lives: Down the drain

By: Jen

February 2004

School depresses me. I sit in a classroom for nearly six hours everyday, learning the same things I’ve learn for years, never really getting smarter…. It’s the repetitiveness that makes me miserable. It’s knowing that I’ll be sitting in classrooms for the rest of my life just listening to teachers drone on about the same god damned things. It never stops. It never ends… and there’s no way to escape.

            People say it’s just school…. But it’s not. It’s life. Without school, life is gone. Any potential you had is wasted. Without school, life ends at the low paying job forever tying you down.

Apathy doesn’t cut it in our fast paced world. In our decay of society, there’s no way to heal once you’ve fallen in education. The only thing left is death.

I understand why people stop going to school. It becomes an essential part of your pointless life. It’s inescapable. But at the same time, it’s impossible to deal. It’s hard to take the laughs that come speeding at you, pushing you down into the darkness. Everything you say is wrong… Anything you do is immoral. Punished for opening your mouth at all. It’s hard to never speak your mind again, just cutting your self off from your conscious. It’s hard to abandon all your morals once you open the dreaded doors. Only doom seems to wait on the other side. Hanging over our heads, we wait patiently for the darkness to sweep us under, leaving us gasping for our breath under the weight of this obscurity. An obscurity we are forced into for the rest of our lives. No matter how hard we press in the world, we are always tied down to this monotonous life of being nothing but a shadow.

I just hope I can sleep off the dark despair I’ve sunk into before it drags me far too deep below surface. I yawn and choke, smiling in morbid satisfaction as I feel the water of misery soak into my lungs, slowly drowning on life: a disease that won’t seem to heal.

A/N: I can’t decide if this is done or not…. So I’m going to say it is for now.  :D Strangely… this did make me feel better…. Rachel was right! I don’t hate school right now (could have sumthing to do with me skipping today too)!