"Bitter smile"

I'm tired of always running back to you,
Making empty promises,
"I'll never look away"

I don't laugh because of him anymore,
I don't cry because of him anymore,
I don't feel him anymore,
I no longer have a longing,
This is your last smile.
I gave so much to you,
You're a thief,
You're a loser

He doesn't make me happy,
Surely I don't fascinate him anyway,
I think I'm going to cry,
I think I'm going to break down,
This is my last smile.
I let you waste so much,
I wish you'd go away...

I cried when I didn't need to,
I obsessed when I didn't need to,
I loved when I didn't need to,
You're a thief, you're a loser.
I bitterly know you as a loser,
I fondly remember you as a lover,
Here, trapped in this tangled web,
My burdens are so heavy...

I don't laugh because of you anymore,
I don't cry because of you anymore,
I don't feel you anymore,
I no longer have a longing,
This is your last smile.
I gave too much for you to waste,
You're a thief,
You're a loser.

You don't make me happy,
Surely I don't fascinate you anyway,
Trapped in this nightmare, you call my name,
I think I'm going to break down,
This is my last bitter smile.
I let you waste so much,
I wish you'd go away...

I no longer need a longing,
This is your last smile.
I think I'm going to break down,
This is my last bitter smile.

02/21/04

I know this is not my usual style, but it was stuck in my head and I had to let it out. I matched it to a japanese song.. so I think it looks a little weird, perhaps a little incomplete, but that's fine.. its not my favourite poem/song anyway. I made it about my ex boyfriend I -still- can't get over.. I'm such a pathetic thing.