she is a smiling happy girl who fucks with people's minds

engulfed with hate see (she makes her angry he makes her scream)
disgusted when she touches (violates so filthy without passion) herself
laughs laughs LAUGHS (scream it, shout it)
when they insult her (watch: she pretends to care less, only it comes out
as more)
wishes her mother would understand her (wishes her mother would just stop
thinking she knows best, or anything at all)
wants (that coward!) to steal cigarettes to burn herself (she slices her wrists and licks the blood)
god! she'd love to cry once in a while (salt for food, food for thought, thought for her sanity tainted bed)
and she feels so pleasantly dirty and scratches her skin (it's just feelings, not for the having)
disastrously hysterical (paste on that grin, come on, come on) and life's a joke (she's pathetic in your eyes, such as in mine)
she's stuck in the middle of it all (they might as well put chains on for size)
time for games little one (dress up for one and play pretend)
fantasy for one (just keep thinking it, it'll come true)
cry when you sleep and say you're laughing (makes you cry wolf when they force you)
her mother tries to butt in all the time (and entertain herself)
she says things she doesn't mean (but it feels good inside)
too many scars on her forearm (she's never had a breakthrough)
they say she isn't healthy (it's just pretend)
she tries to be better (better now then? than when?)
in her mind she is just peachy (just always try)
gets out of bed in an effort (pulls up the covers)
she's just sad (aches in the chest)
gives her heart to you (still throbbing, pulsating)
i am crying (inside)
let me
please let me
am i better? (answer inside out)
it's in my head (under my skin)