You'll never know those feelings
Because you never asked me
Where did you go?
Why can't I hear you any more?
Your voice, it faded away, just like the light.
I'm haunted by those feelings that never seem
To disappear, but just hide until I release them.
Unwilling but not fighting, I let them all take me over
And blanket me with their cold air.
I sit and wonder if I should wait for you to come back,
Or follow you, whichever way you went.
Or do I just keep going and forget about you?
Live life as though you never existed, or as if you died
And left me in this cold place without a goodbye.
My heart feels so empty all of a sudden because you're
Not around any more...where did you go?
Why can't I see you any more?
I don't know what I did wrong, but I feel so horrible
As if I betrayed you and lost your trust.
I wish you'd come back and tell me, so I could fix it
To make everything good again.
But you've been gone so long, and I'm finding it harder
To figure things out on my own.
What do I do without you with me? I've never had to
Go a single day without you by my side.
But suddenly, you disappeared without a trace, nothing
Besides this incredible pain in my soul.
I've been ripped in half since you left me here.
Left me here to die...without you here, I can't go on.
So many things I want to know, I want to tell, I want to ask.
But you're gone and nowhere in sight.
There's nothing ahead of me and behind me...I can't turn back,
It won't let me.
That must be where you are. Behind me.
You abandoned me...I hate you! You left me all by myself
After you swore never to. My heart broke into a million
Pieces and I sent away all the dust and shards to the heavens
To draw you back here...and still you're gone.
I miss you, so, so much, why can't you see that?
Why won't you come back!?
Please, just for one more day and tell me why you left me.
Tell me something, because I need to know...I need you here.
~2-25-04~