I hold my pain deep inside my heart,
A clenched fist,
Allowing no drop out of this death grip.
A brick inside, building up,
One brick, two, soon a whole wall around me,
Where's a bulldozer when I need it?
This pain I hold so strongly,
It eats away,
Chewing, chewing, consuming my soul,
Allowing no leverage,
Numb.
Can't you see that this life I lead is just a clever concealment?
Can you see me inside of all this plaster?
Crumbled, caving in on me,
I'm falling,
And there's no way out of this rubble.
Concrete floor, dusty brick and grime surrounding,
Rusted chain-link fence,
The blacktop reaches farther than the eye can see,
The clouds falling in,
Suffocating, chocking, stealing away all that was once good.
The days zoom past,
Leaving me in their smothering dust,
And I'm all alone.
I can hear the laughter of little girls,
The pounding of my heart,
And the tick, tick, tick of the restless clock.
All these sounds haunting me,
Writhing in the air,
As I sit on the cold, grey ground,
Here in my chain-link prison.
The sun rises up,
Staining everything with a blinding, hurting yellow light,
Artificial, this is nothing but the Night's betrayal.
In this new light, suddenly a cloak covers,
Suddenly stopping this rage,
Camouflaging me in the peaceful dark.
I look up,
Past the rusty wires of my chain-link prison,
And I see you.
Your hair, clothes, eyes,
Living dark,
As beautiful and dangerous as fresh-cut obsidian,
A sharp and alluring gaze,
Green eyes pierce through the barbed wire,
Making everything whole again.
I watch from afar,
Sitting alone in my chain-link prison.
Will you see me?
Will you save me?
You're my love, my life, my last hope.
I reach for you,
My fingers entangling in the rust,
Tainting my pure white skin.
The blood seeps through,
Adding life to this dusty cell,
And... What? Could it be?
Catching your gaze,
You see me!
Will you swoop down and be my hero,
Or just remain a far-away vision,
Your wild darkness a mere dream of mine?
Will you leave me alone?
Leave me to die in my chain-link prison?