if only they knew

If Only They Knew They moan at me for laughing

They mock me when I cry

If I'm showing no emotion

They say they want me to die

If only they knew my pain

They might not be so mean

Inside I'm hurting so, so much

If only it could be seen

Most nights I feel numb

The pain has become so bad

That I can feel it no longer

This life sucks; I think I'm mad

The life I wish I has

Is the life they think I've got

They don't know my life

I act happy, but deep down I'm not

I'm so different from them

They look no further than the surface

I feel so lonely, sad and scared

I don't wanna die, but I can't take this

Carol marquez

I wrote this cuz I wanted to