I was always taught that eavesdropping
was wrong.

Why didn't I listen?

I heard you today,
bragging about your date with her.
I was shocked.
My true love dating was my mortal enemy.

It broke my heart into millions of tiny pieces.

I held back the tears,
not wanting to embarrass myself.

But soon enough,
I could not do it.
The tears that threatened to fall
finally fell.

I did my best to stop them,
but I failed.

Nobody could help me.
So many friends asked me what was wrong.
I couldn't manage to utter the words.
My mouth refused to speak about my heartbreak.

For so long
I have loved you,
and received nothing in return.

I have loved you passionately
for more days than I can count.
But each of those days,
you ignored me.
Now
as I sit here on my floor,
shredding my memories of you to pieces,
I weep.

I wanted you,
and loved you,
more than any other girl could ever love you.

I sit on my bed,
contemplating what to do.

I have no life without you;
nothing can fill the void you left in my life.
Do I go on living a loveless life?
Or should I end it now and move on to eternal peace?

Dying now would be less painful
than living forever without you.