~Here ends the dream~

"I've been looking for you everywhere, Rhi! What are you doing out here?" A tall young man walked toward a petite young woman, his gray umbrella creating a dripping circle around him. "Hey, Alex." Rhi answered without moving from her position where she sat upon a rock, hugging her knees.

"What are you doing?" Alex moved closer to put his umbrella over both of them, but Rhi waved him away. "Nothing." She replied in a flat voice, cold rain washing down her face. Alex raised an eyebrow. "You're sitting out here, in the rain, with no reason and no purpose?"

Rhi closed her eyes, and gave a soft sigh. "Go away Alex, you don't belong here." Alex glared at her indignantly. "No one does! It's cold and wet and, and you aren't even wearing a coat! You better get inside before you make yourself ill." He reached toward her, intending to lead her away.

Suddenly, she jumped up and whirled on him. He looked back in shock at seeing her empty eyes. "I was sitting here, thinking, wondering if I was going insane actually."

For a moment he just gaped at her. "What are you talking about?" He asked forgetting his urgent need to get them both out of the rain. Her gaze turned sorrowful, and for the first time she seemed to actually see him, for a moment her mouth shuttered as she searched for words.

" I I'm not real. It's not your fault, I don't think it's mine either. It's just that you're everything I've always wanted, everything I've always dreamed, everything I've always needed. And oh! I needed it! I know I've felt it since I could remember. It was always there. And I knew that one day someone would come and he would fix it, fix me. I've been sitting out here, and I felt the rain, but it didn't matter. I was cold, but it was just a feeling, nothing that mattered. And that's the way it is with you. I couldn't imagine anyone kinder, or smarter, or more perfect for me. I love spending time with you, but it's wrong some how. It's not what it's supposed to be. Everyone says, you'll know the One when you find him, you'll just know, you'll know you love him. Well, I don't. There were no parades in my head. I haven't been dancing on clouds. I've been perfectly happy. There's no passion. It's just like the rain, I feel it, I feel you, but it's only a feeling, I would not die without it, I would morn, but I wouldn't die. This isn't what I imagined. And now, I think I finally realized, I haven't been searching for a person, I've been searching for a feeling. And that's not love .I don't think I know what love is."

Tears now ran freely down her face blending with the rain. Alex stared at her, not sure if he quite understood what she was telling him. "What- what are you ?" He stuttered, this sounded abominably similar to a break-up.

" It's just, I feel like this is a farce, a fantasy in my head, it's not real, I'm not real. We're both just playing a part. In the end I'll wake up because there's nothing strong enough to keep me here. I've tried to make myself feel It, but I just can't, it's not something one can just convince themselves they feel. Without reality it broken. Everything I thought was certain is gone."

She paused unsure exactly how to say what she meant. "Just tell yourself I was a dream, it's easy to wake from a dream. I'd stay if you needed me, but I know it'd just make it worse. Here ends the dream, my darling, my love, the man who's everything I convinced myself I wanted. Here ends the dream."

A/N: Does this even make any sense? It was late, cold and rainy and rainy when I wrote it. I have no idea. I think we'll just have to say Rhi was going insane, but then again, if sometimes it does feel like a dream..oh I don't know, here's a cookie for anyone who suffered themselves to read it is. : )