What is my purpose?
Why am I here?
To be lost in oblivion,
forgotten, I fear.

Will I leave a mark,
Be it a scuff or a glow,
on anyone's life?
This I don't know.

I know why I was made,
my parents were lonely.
I know what I've become,
a restless teen only.

I know reason for creation,
we're all just God's toys,
some others were made
to be mere decoys.

Am I one of them?
the ones there to fool,
the ones without souls,
who live by the rule?

I refuse to be that,
just boring and lame.
I look back on my life,
and that's me all the same.

Maybe I'll motivate
others with my writing,
maybe my words
will cease hunger or fighting.

But maybe I'm wrong
and I'm just a joke,
maybe I'm empty,
an egg without yolk.

No! I control!
I've got my own destiny!
Don't my decisions
hold a path that was meant to be?

Or maybe that path
is twisted and haunting.
Or maybe my life
will be simply undaunting.

I had hoped to find someone,
for my love is a well,
I looked down into it
and into it I fell.

His eyes are like beacons of light
they see through me.
His soul is a simple delight
that creeps through me.

His voice rings through my head,
will it never stop?
It's good that I love the sound,
of the world, I'm on top.

But then she came in
and beat me to him,
for she knew I could never
go out on a limb.

so my life's without purpose
and alone I sit aching,
she was my best friend
I'm crying, I'm shaking

If this is the blessing
they left me to hold,
then they'll soon find out
what it's like to be cold.

I'll just end it here,
so it can't get much worse.
I'll not take them with me,
but I'll leave them a curse.

They'll never be happy,
they'll never be paired,
they'll not find out
what it's like to have cared.

Or maybe I'll stop
and go for second-best,
maybe this is all
just a cruel test.

To hell with it all!
Can he not hear me cry?
He probably hates me,
I'll be better, no lie!

I give in to sadness
and I find a sharp knife,
I'm sorry my friends
if I've ruined your life.

But you ruined mine...