The pain and anger surround my every decision
Causing me to lose control over my existence
Not wanting to know what comes next
Afraid that it will just cause me more pain and anguish.
Seeing you makes my eyes tear up
Because I know I can't have you
And I know down inside that you are the cause for all my agony
And horrible thoughts start to run through my head as I think of you.
I want out of this world! I want it all to be over!
Everything that can go wrong is going wrong
Everyday just makes it worse
And I continue to spiral towards the black abyss that I won't be able to
escape.
I just want to end it all
Because of you and my life
What is the point of living?
So I can continue to get walked over like a blade of grass withering in the
sun.
The only reason I can't end my petty existence
Is because I'm not brave enough too.
Maybe I'm not supposed to exist at all
Being the coward I am.
I was just a mistake accidentally created by God
And now he tortures me as if I did something wrong
And all I can do is look towards the heavens and ask:
"Why do you hate me so?"