"Mommy"
by: 'lyn

~*~ I dedicate this to all the babies who've been aborted, or adopted, and
to Justin, who seems like the only other friend I have who cares about this
topic as strongly as - or even stronger than - I do ~*~

I gave you a chance.
I gave you a choice.
It's a pity you killed me
before you heard my voice.

I thought you wanted me -
that's why I came
into our life.
What would've been my name?

Mommy, my Mommy:
she didn't want me anyway.
I guess she didn't know
that fifteen minutes could make a life.
She never saw humanity in that embryo.

I don't care if you didn't love him.
You should have seen
how much of you was in me.
You can't toy with life to fit your every whim.

Perhaps you didn't want
to change my diapers.
Perhaps you didn't want
to feed me, to hold me,
to console me, to love me.

Did you hate me that much?

Mommy, what did I do wrong?
How could just living be a crime?
If you gave me life, why take it away?

Unnatural death, you murderer!
You didn't have to like me-
someone would have adopted me.
At least, they'd love me more than you.

Perhaps you didn't want
to buy me toys, or tiny clothes.
If I had lived, if I was born,
wouldn't you be proud
if I had made it on the honor role?

I still love you,
though you don't love me.
I still wish with all my soul
that you never got that abortion.

It's hard now to realize
that I will never laugh,
though I'll never cry.
I wonder if it's hard on you.

Mommy, I wish you loved me enough
to give me a life, to let me be born.
Mommy, I wish you loved me enough
to so much as tell me my name.