These stupid words I've spoken

I'm sorry
For all the stupid things
That I have said to you
The words that have hurt
Every belief you have
I know it wasn't right
Well I did it anyway
I don't think anything through
When I talk to you
Messing everything up
From start to finish
Even when I try to apologize
For stepping on you
Bringing you down
Is not what I want to do
So strike a match
Set it aflame
Pour gasoline
Across my body
As I sleep at night
Set my body
Upon fire
For what I have done to you
I know it wasn't right
No matter how sorry
I say I am
I know it won't be enough
Everything I say to you
Just comes out
The wrong way
Set me ablaze
With your dark red candle
The black whicker
Awaiting the flame
Let the wax
Run down my throat
As it burns and it bleeds
The muscle inside
Till it hardens
And I can't breath
For all my apologies
I still can't make it right
If I could take it all back
I would
Without a doubt
Stop myself
Before I said those words to you
And you're beautiful
I'm sure
As you strike that match
I will you to
Set my body ablaze
As I sleep at night
Watch from the window
Across the street
As the house burns down
To the foundations
Crumbling into the basement below
Just don't say I don't deserve it
We both know I do
So burn me down
For every word I say
I only hurt you
Oh so constantly
Without regret
Smother my body
In tanker fluid
Set it ablaze
Watch the flame
Eat away at my body
Listen for the flames
Eat away at the fat
Making distinct popping sounds
For this I give you
My eternal payment
For hurting you
Forever from now