Uncrushed
Sorry for writing this - this is personal, and it speaks for itself. I
thought I'd found love, but it was something else. Give it a chance, don't
put it up on the shelf. I hurt someone deeply because of my choice, please
read and review, speak with your voice. Am I Bitch, or an I confused?
Either way, reading it, you can't loose.

You were an illusion
I saw everyday
You caused me so much confusion
So much I cannot say
I used to pray for you
To sit beside me
But when my wish came true
I only started to see.
I thought you were a king
I thought you were a knight
But you weren't any of these things
When I exposed you to the light.
Where was the man,
Who would save me from myself?
Was there no plan
To assert yourself
And find me waiting
To be taken into your arms
Instead I've ended up hating
Your lack of imagined charms.
You shook when you spoke
You followed me home
It was my heart you broke
When you made me alone.
I did love you, my dear
Don't put yourself on the shelf
But you are what I fear
A reflection of a past self.
I Am stronger now
Although I don't feel it
I made myself vow
Not to return to that pit
Of oblivion, of death
Where my only hope
Was that I'd be left
Alone to cope.
I didn't want to hurt you.
But I had no other choice
I could not love you
Or I'd lose my voice
I'd become what I was
And not what I am.
I have my flaws
But I am not Sham
I need to grow
Not to shrink
We weren't right you know
I just need to think.
You're not for me
I thought you were
Please forgive me
For this learning curve.
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