Twisted Smile

Day to day
Step on step
I was smarter than that
Surviving,
I was alive
But dead inside
If I can see
What lies ahead
Anticipate each motion
It'll all be worth it
If they're smiling
If I pretend
That I'm not dead
Then I can make it worth it
And they'll be smiling
But that's not living
Why can't I be smiling too?
It's your problem
If that hurts you
It's your problem
If my smile cuts you
But it's not enough
I have to live
I'm sorry but I have to smile