I'm tired of being strong
Do any of you realize it?
Obviously you do
Because you keep slaughtering me with the truth
Over and over again.
Do you know what it's like
To have lost everyone,
Each and every person you've ever loved?
Do you know what it's like
To have nobody to hold onto?
Do you know what it's like

To be totally different than everyone else,
Knowing that you could never be party of anything?
And to convince yourself
That this is all you'll ever deserve.
How could you go on with life
Knowing that's all it will ever be?

This will not go away
Like a recurring nightmare.
Must I seclude myself from other people
And live hopelessly in memories and dreams?

I see him.
Whom I have slashed his heart.
I cannot let this murderer get loose
And I must be happy that he can forget me forever.

I see know
I have lost another great friend
Because of my irreversible faults.

I see many faces
People who meant so much to me
But I am nothing to them

Nothing.

For that, I hate them
But I know I must not
For this all I deserve.