This little rant (although the feelings of a character in Feuer, Wasser, Luft, Erde.) It is also my feelings on a certain subject which remains, unsaid. (see if you can guess.)

He

He has an overpowering look in his eyes.

They pierce into me like shards of ice splitting through my already shredded flesh.

But through the icy layers deep in his eyes, the spot of warmness soothes any and all wounds.

He stares down on me as I struggle for an answer as I flip through my notes.

I finally stutter out my long-awaited, right answer.

He nods and moves on.

As he moves on though, my mind in it's entirety, move along side him.

Why?

Why am I subject to such feelings when I know they are indeed wrong.

I know it's wrong for me to love him but I can't get over him.

His smile.

His eyes, threatening, yet loving, though not towards me.

I long for his acceptance and the final end to this unrequited love.

But to no avail, alas this will never be.

19 years.

19 years older than me.

No matter how hard I try to stop this love for him, -- it ceases to yield.

With every movement I find myself fixated on him.

I see him, in the hallway, in a classroom, and my heart skips multiple beats.

I long to express my feelings for him-tell him how I feel.

I long to reach out, hold him, for the slightest brush against him sends chills up and down my spine.

This is how it all started. The dreams.

My dreams of him, always longing to hold in which my love for him is true and his love is the same. My dreams come true.

God why, why burden him?

I'm almost positive he knows, he seems to know by averting his gaze.

I just can't take this pain anymore, am I damned to spend the rest of my life alone and longing for someone who will never return my feelings.

Everyone tells me."give up, it's never going to happen."

"I hope you know he won't ever like you."

"He only likes you because of your sister."

I just want to tell I couldn't destroy what friendship we have.

I see him as one of my best friends and after I graduate.I hope to still have him as a nothing else.

I love him

More than I should.

I know that much.

I want to hold him so much. I want to be with him, he's all I long for.

Why must my life contain so much agony in the light of love?

Why does cupid's arrow spite me so.

He is my teacher, my friend

He can't be all I hope him to be with me. He can't feel for me like the way I feel about him.

I desperately long for a simple touch, a simple touch.

Help me.