It’s been so long

I want to go back to that time

When my mind wasn’t troubled

My dreams weren’t haunted

I feel suppressed

Something is closing around my heart

It’s entangled in thoughts

I loath myself

For being so weak

For drowning in self pity

I often wonder when I will get my share

Of love and tenderness

It all seems so unfair

What have I done so wrong

To deserve this

Soon I’ll shatter in little pieces

I try to stay strong

To live on

But it’s so hard

When you feel that all hope is gone