Passionate Dreams

I dreamt that I kissed your lips;

            Your hand,

                      Your breast

                        Your inner thighs

I dreamt that I push myself against you

            Kissed your neck,

                        As you moaned

            I woke up wet,

                       Cursing to myself

                              Dripping in my heated sweat

I dreamt I was lost in lust,

            I dreamt I tasted you sweet

            But you felt nothing,

           Not even a slight whimper from your lips

            I woke up mad,

                    That I couldn’t please you

I dreamt I held you in my arms

            To comfort thee

            As I opened my lips, to whisper the word “love”

            I woke up with my self-hatred grown

                        For I knew,

                            My heart was not worthy enough for you

This is what you have done to me,

            Yet, I still wish you were near

            What has come over me?

            Shall I know and only feel this passion in my dreams

                        And know only restraint when you are near

Or tell me that I am free to love

            And free to lust

                        And make my dreams not know the meaning of passion