Permanent Escape

A.N. this piece was written about old feelings…so please, to all my friends, don’t freak out! *Polyam…*

The nightmare takes form

And turns into reality

And security flees away from me

Loathing life

And seeking a permanent escape

I wound myself

A proclamation of my pain

And yet I keep it to myself

A geography map of scars decorate my wrists

And I gaze at their sharp beauty

Repulsive

I make myself vomit when I think of me

Repugnant

Why don’t I obliterate my insipid life

As it is pointless, a reckless heap of nothingness

I live a lie

The lie says that I love myself

But someday the façade will betray me

And my life will end

In a permanent escape