Title: Heaven
Author: Aly (wind goddess fuu)
Rating: PG-13

I went somewhere I should not have gone. And that place was Heaven. I thought I had had Heaven before. I thought that I had everything I could have ever wanted in life. I was wrong, because I found everything when I found him. I found an angel and he took me to a place that could only be described as Heaven.

It’s not like I was somewhere I should not have been when I found him. Or did he find me? Maybe we found each other. It was night, I remember. It was a cool spring night and I was lonely. I was always so lonely. It’s funny how you can be surrounded by thousands of people and still feel so alone. I took a walk, down through along the deserted sidewalks, away from the laughter of the dorms, toward the buildings that imprisoned us during the day and tortured us with boring lectures and never ending labs. I walked toward the mall, toward the fountain. There’s something about the sound of falling that water that soothes me at even the darkest of times.

And I laid myself out along side the fountain, resting my head on my folded jacket. My mind wondered along the clouds, skipping around the planets, playing tag with the stars, and hiding behind the moon. As I my mind played its little games, I was vaguely aware of someone approaching. Suddenly his face was above me, and it was the face of an angel. Mischievous green eyes were hidden in the shadow of his black hair, but I could still make out his seductive smirk. And my heart stopped and my mind ceased its silly games and all that was in my head was him. To think that someone I had never met before could make me react so.

He asked me what I was doing, what was I doing laying out in the early hours of the morning, the late hours of the night, all by myself and staring up at the stars as if they were the most fascinating thing in the world. And I replied that they were the most fascinating things, but they were hardly of this world. I can scarcely remember anything that happened after that. I remember having the most enjoyable conversations I had ever had in my entire life. I was hypnotized by his every movement, by his every smile, by every single breath that this angel took. But soon he said he had to leave, and I begged him not to go. We made plans, we exchanged numbers, and I watched him walk away. As soon as he was out of sight, I longed to see him again.

At this point, I had not gone yet. No, I was still planted on earth, if not walking a few inches above the ground, but I was not in Heaven quite yet. I saw him again, and again, and with each new encounter I grew so attached to him, I wished I could never be without him.

One night, in the warm air of summer, we walked along the campus grounds and stood in front of the fountain, remembering that is was at this place that we met. He looked into my eyes, and I remember drowning in the emotions I saw, knowing that they were reflected in my own. I couldn’t resist. I leaned forward and placed my lips on his.

As soon as it happened I was frightened. It was wrong, I should have gone to this place, I should never have felt this way about another boy. But I did. I pulled back and I could feel my fear etched in every line of my face, but he smiled. He smiled the most radiant smile I had ever seen. He reached his hand behind my neck, slid it up into my hair and pulled my lips toward his own soft and careless ones. I felt his hands on me and my hands on him. I felt his tongue on my lips and opened my mouth, allowing him a taste and tasting in return. And then I knew Heaven.

No, I knew a piece of Heaven. And it was not enough to bring addiction upon me, to bring me to obsession. I had to know it all. I wanted to feel his skin with my own. I wanted to touch, to taste, to feel, to explore, to truly know every inch of his Heavenly body.

It took time. But I did come to know Heaven. I came to know my angel like I know no other, not even myself. He gave me wings and I flew with him to Heavenly ecstasy. And now that I know what Heaven is like I shall never return to earth. All because I went somewhere I should not have gone.