After-Party-Feeling

I sit and wait

For this feeling to come

It’s sad

How I always manage to feel this way

Useless and Alone

I wonder what it is

That I’ve done so terribly wrong

Why I don’t deserve happiness and tenderness

I don’t want to be alone

It hurts

And it makes me wonder

What there is to live for

I feel abandoned

By everyone and everything

I cry my tears

Hidden in my pillow

I don’t want their pity

I don’t want them to know

I just want to feel special and loved

So I don’t have to wonder

Why the hell I’m still living with this false hope