Death beyond death.
~Saiai

One Life, Ten Deaths

I died tonight
I felt the pain of my heart slamming still
I felt my fresh corpse drop
And hit hard on the plush carpet
I heard the faint screams of my name
And I died a second time
When I realized it was you
My breath stilled as you carried me close
How I wanted to push you away
And to pull you closer
I died the third time
When you cried over my limp form
I hated you then
You had no right
You were the one that killed me
I died the fourth time
As my blood froze under your touch
I loved you then
When you held me tight
And begged for me to come back
I died the fifth time
When she pulled you away
Giving you a shoulder to cry on
How typical of her to take you
How typical of you to let her
I died the sixth time
When you brushed my hair from my face
And asked why I left
You're such a bastard
Asking such obvious questions
I died the seventh time
When your lips brushed mine
All my life I waited for that sensation
And you give it a little to late
As you deny me happiness once again
I died the eighth time
When I couldn't touch you back
No matter how much I tried
But why should I care?
It's all your fault anyway
I died the ninth time
When you screamed 'I love you'
How come I still hurt?
Only you could bring pain to the dead
I hate how I love you too
I died the tenth time
When you said good-bye
I couldn't pull you back
I still couldn't keep you
I hate you for it
I died tonight