Black Hole of Doom

My soul black as coal
Just as my mood has turned into
No matter what I do
I keep returning back to this
Treacherous mood
Crying tears of crimson red
A tortured soul
Is what I've become
Desperate to be and
Remain happy and hyper
Just as I once always was
But only growing more tortured and cold
A dying soul
A broken heart
Bleeding tears of torment
Sadness creeping
Fighting the pain
Desperate to rise above
But only falling harder into my
Black hole of doom
Why can't I just escape this
Unforgiving pain of horror?