Her breathing is slow and rhythmic
I watch as her eyelids flutter but do not open
There is nothing I can do to take her pain away
And tears slide down my cheeks.
I'm helpless
She winces as the needle slides though her vein
Pushing in a remedy to her fears
I want to hold her hand, but I'm frozen
The strong one is now at the mercy of others
And I am helpless
I thought I was in control and I would be alright
Nothing was happening to me, only to her
So why do I want to vomit and run away?
There is nothing I can do
Because I'm helpless
When she wake up the room spins and her stomach heaves
And once again I want to cry
I don't like to see her in pain
Usually she is the strong one
When I am helpless
So now here I sit, waiting in the dark heat
While she sleeps in the dark coolness
I chew my nails and bit my lip
Wishing there was something to make me feel
Anything but helpless