Lament of Nonexistent Hate

I can't help if I hate you
And all your lies colored me blue

And all I want is for you to die
But if that would happen I would cry

And all of this has got me so confused
But I still feel like I was used

I wish that I could hate you
Especially since you split my world in two

This is the 2nd poem in the Lament series. It is a confusing poem, so feel
free to ask questions. This is the only one that rhymes though, if I
remember correctly. Please R&R and I'll love you forever ^_^