Its been a while since I even looked at this bear with me ya'll.
I don't hate you anymore
That pain has left me completely,
Because I've realized
That what you did to me,
Could have been avoided.
So I don't hate you anymore.
Now I only hate myself.
And the things I did for the pain you caused,
Because now my once smooth skin,
Has marks upon it.
Scars from pain,
That were self inflicted,
To deal with you.
You don't come to me anymore,
Something for which
I am eternally grateful.
So I don't have to try and push you away,
Or tell you "No."
Because you aren't here anymore.
Don't get me wrong.
I'm glad your gone,
So now I can live,
Or try to at least.
But living is harder than I remember.
Its different than it used to be.
Now I see the girls in class,
One who was "assaulted"
By someone.
She told the cops.
And was really shaken up.
I see her eyes dart nervously about the classroom,
Theyre looking for someone to challenge her.
But no one does.
And I see the relief written on her face.
The happiness she seems to feel,
For telling on this guy,
For telling how he wronged her.
And how afraid she looks that he'll come back.
And I wonder if that's how I look.
But I know its not.
Because no one knows what you did.
Because no one will ever know.
I wont say a word,
And neither will you.
So I realize that relief that she feels,
That happiness that she has over telling what happened,
I wont ever feel that.
I wont ever mention who you are,
To anyone.
So goodbye.