Summery: Lean has hit a brick wall. His twin brother Ceren is moving out leaving him with his parents who don’t think he can ever live up to Ceren’s standard. He doesn’t want Ceren to leave him, but is it more than brotherly love that ties them together? m/m.

A/n: The twins have been in my head for a while now begging for me to write about them but I’ve had exams stopping me from updating anything. I’m not sure how people are going to take this story but I really like it, I hope other folk do too. The first chapter contains a really strong sexual scene but it’s quite a short chappie overall, the next chapter is in progress and it’ll be much longer than this I hope. All of this was written at random times and out of chronology so if it seems a little ragged that’s why.

WARNING: right kiddies it’s time for you to leave now. Plus any homophobes or anyone that doesn’t condone incest and/or graphic sexual scenes should follow suit. Peoplefolks left: I hope you enjoy the show!      Kai

‘Be with me.’

“Better watch out Joshka you might have some competition from this one.” Lean couldn’t see who had made the comment in the murky darkness of the room but he probably wouldn’t know them even if he could see them.

“Wait,” A new voice mumbled. Someone was rustling around to Leans right then a switch was flipped and sleepily a few blue and purple lights flicked on and lit up the room. Lean didn’t bother to wonder why the hell someone would use these lights seeing as they gave off practically no light, he decided it was probably wisest to keep his mouth shut.

“Mmm,” The guy that had flicked on the lights said. “Pretty enough to eat.” Lean gaped at the boy. His eyes were becoming more used to the lighting and what he saw probably shouldn’t have been all that surprising but he stared anyway.

The room was only one of a series that made up the basement. It had three sides full of random jagged corners but one was a completely smooth outward curve. Inside the semi-circle of the curved wall an old sofa covered in what could only be cigarette burns with two oversize mismatching cushions took up the middle while one or two beanbags and a foam futon were scattered along side. There were about six or seven guys in the room but Lean could only name a few. One of the folk sitting one the sofa, from the look of it the one that had spoken first, was one of his brother’s friends. Lean saw them hang round together at school sometimes. There were random unlabeled bottles lying around most of them half-full and probably forgotten. Nearly everyone had cigarettes but Lean could smell the sickeningly sweet smell of weed so he figured a few of the guys were sharing a joint. It was the guy that had flicked the light on that Lean was staring at though. Joshua Ettings, better known as ‘Joshka’ to the whole of their high school. He was in a few of Lean’s classes but Josh probably didn’t even realise that. They didn’t exactly move in the same circles. Come to think of it…why the hell had Lean been dragged here? He didn’t know anyone! They were all his brother’s friends.

 The night just dragged on and on for Lean. Sitting silently on the floor watching his brother smile at him every now and then encouragingly.

 Ceren kept sneaking glances at him over the rim of his bottle, smiling and trying to cheer him. He could tell it wasn’t working though.

“Hey guys we’re gonna head off a’ight? See y’all later.” Ceren suddenly announced, deciding it wasn’t worth it to put his twin through this.  Lean was already up at the door as Ceren stepped out into the warm summer night.

“I didn’t know Joshua hung about with you guys.” Lean broke the silence and the started off towards home.

“Huh? Oh he um…sometimes.” Lean looked at his brother curiously. “Not all the time but yeah, sometimes. Why?” Ceren finally got out, Lean wondered if he was avoiding something but didn’t push it.

“No reason I was just kind of surprised to see him there’s all. He doesn’t seem the type...from what I’ve seen of him in class and stuff.”

Neither boy spoke after that, concentrating instead on the steady thud of their footsteps. Both of them knew what was to come, but neither of them wanted to bring it up. Finally Ceren braved it.

 Halting he put a hand on Leans arm and turned him round so tight that they were close enough to be kissing but not.

Lean held his breath suddenly, feeling Ceren’s hot breathing against his lips.

Sudden flashbacks hit Ceren on times he’d felt like this. Like he didn’t really know his twin. They were meant to be two half’s of the same soul but right at that moment Ceren wished it was a lie. He wanted them to be complete strangers; he wished he’d never met Lean. He wished they were just friends, that they could learn to explore each other like normal teenagers. It wasn’t possible though.

“Shit.”  Lean looked strained, upset almost. He always did when they got this close. He never understood why though. When they were in they’re early teens it wasn’t so much of a problem. They both had girlfriends back then and they were both far too busy to let anything distract them.

‘And what a distraction…’ Ceren thought studying his twins pained eyes and flushed skin.

“Walk away Lean. Please, it’ll be easier.” Neither of them moved but Lean hadn’t missed the message in his brother’s words.

“How?” tears glittered in Leans wide eyes. “How can you leave me? What have I done!”

“Nothing Lee! I just, I need to go.”

“Why”

“Stop playing coy Lean! You know damned well why! Every time we’re around each other now, it’s…it’s too much. I can’t keep pretending to everyone. To Zoe, to our friends…to myself. It’s just not right.

“Then stop pretending!” Lean almost screamed. He knew things were tough between them but Ceren didn’t have to go this far! He didn’t have to move out!

“Please don’t move out Cer, I’ll stop it I promises! Just don’t leave!!” Lean was desperate now, but the more it begged, it seemed, the more his twin refused to listen to his pleas.

“I already have a flat Lee, and I’m going. It doesn’t matter what you say now!” Ceren nearly regretted the harsh tone when he saw the pain in his twin’s eyes. But he knew he couldn’t back down now.

Reaching out Ceren held his brothers cheek with one hand. Stroking the smooth cheek with his thumb. Lean instinctively flinched away from the hand but it wasn’t what he wanted. A second hand held the other side of his face and he was forced to look up into his twin’s bright eyes.

That was what he wanted…he wanted Ceren. He wanted his brother.

Inside his head a million voices were screaming at him...they were always screaming at him. But this time he didn’t care. An expression crossed Ceren’s face suddenly…Lean was unsure what it was…but he knew what was going to happen next.

Louder and louder the voices were screaming at him, telling him how wrong this was. But when Ceren leant forwards and their lips pressed together the voices were suddenly drowned out.

The kiss was over as soon as it had begun though. Almost as soon as Lean felt his twin’s lips crush his own Ceren had pulled back, but Lean knew his brother. This was what had happened every time…this time Lean was ready for it. Holding his brother tight he kissed Ceren again…and this time his twin let it last.

Pulling away Ceren leaned his forehead against Lean’s. Seemingly satisfied Lean closed his eyes and enjoyed his brother’s arms around him.

“This is why I have to leave.” But the words never left Ceren’s mouth because Lean was already urging him towards their house.

Ceren knew what was going to happen. He had always known somehow that this was inevitable. He let his twin slip them through the front door silently so not to wake up their sleeping aunt and lead them up the stairs. All the while Ceren battled with himself and the overwhelming guilt of how much he was hurting his brother.

Lean might not know it now but this wasn’t going to solve anything…it would only make it hurt more.

Making it to Lean’s bedroom Ceren watched from the doorway as Lean closed the curtains and flicked off the light, leaving them surrounded in soothing shadows.

Sudden apprehension had stopped Lean from even reaching the bed. Walking up behind his motionless twin Ceren wrapped his arms around the nervous boy’s waist shushing quietly in his ear. He didn’t want Lee to fret…if they had to do this they had to do it right.

Lean was overcome by shivers zinging up and down his spine as Ceren’s warm arms wrapped around him tightly. When the shivers stopped he was left with a hot tingling sensation throughout his body abolishing the anxiety and invoked such a feeling of security within his brothers arms he let down his barriers and turned to face Ceren.

Ceren couldn’t see Lean’s expression in the dark but he knew his brother, he didn’t need to see his face to know. Without a word he led him towards the bed.

This kiss was deeper than before, but it wasn’t as hurried or cut short. Letting Lean wriggle forwards into his lap more Ceren wrapped his arms around his younger twin. Lean moaned gently, almost silently, afraid to make a sound lest someone hear them. Breaking the kiss Ceren held Leans face up with one hand while the other rubbed his back reassuringly.

Lean Shivered at the touch and tried to concentrate on meeting his brothers gaze but a little voice in his head wouldn’t leave him alone. It kept chanting over and over what a ‘naughty little boy’ he was.

 Ceren could see the fear in his twin’s eyes. He knew exactly what was going on behind them too. It was well past midnight and the bedroom was in darkness, but there was enough moonlight flittering through the window for Ceren to see the faint trembling of the other boy’s frame.

 Lean licked his lips nervously but regretted it instantly when Ceren zeroed in on the movement and brought a finger up to slowly run it along Lean’s bottom lip. Closing his eyes Lean whimpered pleasingly before hi could stop himself. Ceren’s finger stilled and Lean opened his eyes slowly to see a look of pure lust on his elder brothers face.

 ‘I’ll stop if you tell me too’

The words flew around in Ceren’s head but he couldn’t make himself say them. Lean’s eyes flickered suddenly to the right then back to Ceren. It had only taken a split second but Ceren had noticed it. Sliding one hand around his twin’s neck he cupped his cheek with the other. Leaning in he nipped at his brother’s lips affectionately, then he pulled back just enough to speak.

“She’s asleep Lee, she can’t hear us. I promise she won’t wake up…” He whispered against his twin’s mouth, gesturing at the wall through to their aunt’s bedroom.

 The twins loved their aunt, she’d looked after them since they’re mom had died in childbirth, but they knew she’d never understand this. If she ever found out it would break her and neither twin could stand to see that happen.

 Lean was brought back to reality with his brothers insistent playful nipping on his mouth. Sighing shakily he brought his arm around his brothers neck and opened his mouth allowing Ceren to deepen the kiss.

 Lean shivered as Ceren slid his tongue into his mouth, brushing it along side his own. Little bolts of lightening were running up and down Lean’s spine and the back of his legs. Holding onto Ceren’s hips he broke the kiss for breath but the other twin only gave him a few seconds to regain his breath before locking their lips together again. Lean didn’t complain though, the kisses were intoxicating and he was starting to feel light-headed and shivery. Ceren’s hand was stroking his jaw line while Lean was rubbing his hands in broken circles at the small of his brother back. Slipping his hand under his T-shirt he let it travel further down, slipping it just under the waistband of his twins jeans. Ceren mentally smiled at his brother’s curiosity but he wished the younger twin were bold enough to just go for it. Every time he stopped he was driving Ceren mad.

“You’re such a tease you know that.” Ceren murmured huskily against his brother’s mouth. Lean hoped he wasn’t meant to reply because he had no idea what to say to that. His brother had just called him a tease…a happy floating sensation started filling him up.

 Mimicking the elder twins earlier actions Lean hesitantly ran the tip of his finger over his brother’s swollen lips. Ceren’s tongue darted out and licked his brother’s finger. Lean groaned somewhere at the back of his throat and let Ceren bring the finger into his mouth. He could feel him sucking on it gently and letting his teeth scrape against it lightly.

 Lean shifted in his brother’s lap. His lower body was becoming increasingly uncomfortable. Ceren pulled back from him and a lump caught in his throat at the sight of his twin.

 His hair was mussed from Ceren’s hands repeatedly running through it, his lips were red and swollen from their kisses and his eyes were fevered and bright. Ceren’s gaze dropped to his own hand resting on his twin’s hip. His fingers were rubbing persistently into the crease between his hip and thigh. Ever so gently he let his hand slip down to his groin. Lean’s breath was becoming ragged ad a deep groan tore itself from the back of his throat. Suddenly Lean’s own hand blocked his brother’s progress and the elder twin looked up into his eyes.

“Ceren” Lean was panting heavily and his voice was strained but Ceren could understand perfectly. Gently but firmly prising off Lean’s hand Ceren pushed his hand against the evident bulge in Lean’s jeans causing the other boy to gasp in pleasure. Ceren felt his own body begin to shake at watching his twins shut his eyes and pant at the intensity of the feelings Ceren’s hand were making.

 Sliding his hand up and down against his brother Ceren kept a relatively slow pace but soon Lean’s hips were squirming and rocking against him and his breaths were coming in shorter and shorter bursts. Ceren felt Lean’s hips buck and a low groan tare from him as he climaxed and released against his hand.

 Panting himself Ceren lay back down on the bed, pulling his twin’s trembling body down into his arms. Rubbing Lean’s back reassuringly he tucked his brother’s head under his chin and kissed his hair. He kept whispering kind, quiet phrases into the darkness until Lean fell asleep, and then prised himself from the comatose boys grasp and tiptoed back to his own bedroom. As he crept to bed he caught sight of himself in the mirror…skulking about in his own house -he looked every bit the villain he felt.

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A/n: Ok so that was the first chappie, what do you people think? Review me your opinion. I told you it was short ne? Well I already have the next bit written out it’s just that it’s seems better leaving it off here. There’s a shock in store for Ceren next chappie btw! . Love you lots for reading –Kai