All She Wanted
The door of the McClouds home burst open as Hannah stormed in,
slamming the door behind her. She threw her backpack and everything to the
floor. As she walked by the couch where Ryan and Josh sat watching T.V she
said, "I don't want to talk about it." She ran up the stairs and moment
later the two boys heard a loud slam.
Ryan quickly got up. "I'll be right back." He told Josh, and then ran
up the stairs.
As he reached Hannah's door Ryan could hear crying. His heart broke in
two hearing how much pain she was in. Ran knocked on the door loudly.
"Go away!" Hannah yelled through her tears.
"Hannah. It's me Ryan. Come on. Open the door." He pleaded.
On the other side of the door, Hannah reluctantly got up off her bed
and went to go open the door. She opened it and then left to go sit back on
Ryan slowly walked in and then shut the door behind him. He looked at
Hannah. She still wore her soccer uniform, shin pads and all. Ryan looked
up to her face. Her lower lip quivered and her eyes were red and puffy from
He walked over to the bed and sat down beside her. "What happened?"
She didn't answer. "Something happened with Chase." Ryan assumed.
Hannah looked at Ryan and nodded. More tears fell form her eyes. "Y-
you were right. Chase is trouble."
Ryan's eyes narrowed. "What did he do?"
"He tried to... He wanted... To have sex with me." The last part was
said in a whisper.
Protectiveness for his twin sister ran through his veins. Ryan drew
Hannah into his arms. "He didn't rape you did he?"
Hannah shook her head against her brother's chest. "I got away. But
that was after he called me a little bitch and a tease, and then he dumped
me. I don't care. I'm glad it's over."
"Me too Hannah. I just did not like that guy." He replied.
"I'm sorry I didn't listen to you Ryan. Or Josh." Hannah started to
apologize. "I just thought he wasn't like that you know? But I guess I was
Ryan nodded his understanding. "Why don't you come downstairs and hang
out with me and Josh? It'll be fun. Just the three of us like when we were
"Alright." Hannah agreed. "Just let me take a shower first and then
I'll come down."
"Okay." Ryan stood up and then presses a brotherly kiss on Hannah's
forehead. Then he went to walk out.
"Ryan?" Hannah called.
"No problem." He returned with a smile.
Fifteen minutes later Hannah turned the knob off in the shower. She
quickly stepped out and wrapped a towel around her body and hair. Hannah
then walked into her bedroom and threw on a pair of gray sweatpants and a
hoodie. She quickly brushed her hair and then walked downstairs.
When she reached the couch, Ryan and Josh were sitting there watching
'Joy Ride'. "Do we have to watch this movie?" Hannah complained, sitting
down between the two guys.
Josh looked at her. Her hair was shining bright from the wet, and he
could see a hint of redness around her eyes. 'She was crying.' Josh thought
"Yes." Ryan answered his sister.
Hannah sighed giving in. There was no way she'd win against Ryan. Or
Josh. Josh. She hadn't noticed how good he looked. Hannah had always liked
him as a friend. There was a time, in grade 6, when she had a crush on him.
She was over that now, wasn't she? Hannah couldn't help but notice how
Josh's dazzling green eyes always twinkled when he laughed or how his
reddish hair fell across his forehead and how he hastily brushed it away.
Or how his shirt..
She was interrupted of her thoughts. "Hannah? Hello?" Her brother was
Hannah turned her head and looked at her brother. "Huh? What?"
Ryan and Josh laughed. "The movies over." Ryan added. Had she been
thinking about Josh that long? Hannah was confused. Why was she thinking
this way about him? She wondered. He was Ryan's best friend. She couldn't
fall for him could she? She shook her thoughts away when Josh asked a
"So did you girls win your soccer game?"
"Yeah we did. 3-0. And we owe it all to Katie. She was so happy! Do
you guys know what happened?" Hannah asked.
Ryan chuckled. "I asked her out before the game."
"Go Ryan!" Josh cheered, giving him a high five.
Hannah's eyes widened as she smiled. "Really? Omg, she's liked you
for so ling! But you didn't hear that from me."
"That reminds me. She told me to get her number from you."
"It's number 3 on the speed dial thingy. Go call her." Hannah
encouraged her brother. She winked at him as he got up and walked into the
kitchen where the phone was. That left her and Josh. Alone.
"So, how are you doing?" Josh asked.
Hannah shrugged her shoulders. "Okay I guess. Chase and I broke up."
She looked at Josh. He was already looking at her. "You were right. I'm
sorry I didn't listen to you before Josh."
"It's okay. He didn't hurt you did he?" He asked. Concern showing in
"No." Hannah replied shaking her head back and forth.
"Good." Josh answered.
Hannah looked into his eyes, what she saw surprised her. It was a
look that told her she could confide in him. Trust him. One look that
Hannah had never seen before. The look she wanted to see more often. From
The next thing Hannah knew, she was starting to spill her heart out
to him. "He only wanted me because of my looks and my body. He never wanted
me because I was smart, because of my personality. All he saw was a fresh
piece of meant that could," Hannah struggled for a word. Finally she found
one. "Satisfy him. His needs. His wants. And I found myself under his
spell. Giving him what he wanted and needed. Tonight he wanted," Hannah
closed her eyes and bit down on her bottom lip. "He wanted to have sex and
I refused. I wasn't giving in this time. We got in a fight then and then
"All I want is someone to like me. For who I am inside. Not what they
see on the outside. Is that so hard to ask for?" Hannah looked at Josh. His
eyes showed his understanding. She talked on. "I just want that one special
guy. Who every time came to see me, acted like he hadn't seen me in a week.
That when he kissed me," Hannah's eyes glowed and she smiled. "The earth
moved and nothing else mattered. That he knew just the simplest things
about me. Things that no one knew, but myself and maybe my best friend."
Hannah looked away from Josh and closed her eyes. She reopened them. "Can I
really find that one guy?" The last question was in a whisper. Meant only
Taking his forefinger, Josh put it under her chin, bringing her face
closer to his. "Maybe you're just looking to hard. Maybe this guy is right
in front of you." Josh took his hands and cupped Hannah's face. He brought
his face close to hers and placed a tender kiss on her lips.
The two slowly pulled away and looked into each other's eyes. They
both started to lean in again. Their lips were inches apart when they
heard, "Me and Katie are going out Friday night!"
Josh and Hannah quickly pulled apart as Ryan entered the room.
Completely unaware of the current situation, Ryan continued, "What do you
guys want to watch?" He plopped down on the couch beside Hannah.
Josh glances at his watch. "Shoot guys. I got to head home." He got up
from the couch and headed towards the door. He turned. "See ya tomorrow
Ryan. Bye Hannah." A small smile was on Josh's face as he left.
Ryan turned to look at his sister. 'Okay. What happened?"
"What makes you think something happened?" Hannah asked.
Her brother smiled. "Sis, I hate to tell you this. But you've got very
expressive eyes. Just like Mom."
Hannah didn't say anything. She just smiled. She got up off the couch
and replied, "I think I'm gonna head off to bed now." Hannah bent down to
giver her brother a kiss on the cheek. "Tell Mom and Dad I love them when
they get home. Good night Ryan."
Ryan nodded and replied, "Night Hannah."
As Hannah walked up the stairs to her bedroom she couldn't help but
wonder if Josh had kissed her because he had feelings for her, or was it
just because he felt sorry for her? Did Josh mean what he said before he