Collective thoughts turned into forms of poetry. For those of you who
happen upon this document...how does it make you feel to read these? Or is
it just babble in your eyes?
No one can hear your screams when you sleep and they can't kill you when
you are already dead. Maybe these are just..things I don't say...try to
figure out what I'm trying to say about my thoughts. Good luck.

My heart races
Beats faster and faster
While I stare into your eyes
You into mine
My pulse quickens
My mind questions everything
I find it hard to believe
As my blood thickens
Your eyes are transfixed on something else
I question you silently in my mind
I feel oblivion when I glance at you
I don't know what's false
Running fast
Exhilerating feeling inside
Slow paced movements
Like a thing in the past
No one knows where you're going
Asking too many questions
So much time
So little time
I give everything to be with you
Time, love and friendships
I'd do anything for you
Even with my breath, dying on my lips
I give nothing to myself
Taking my time to know what to do
My life is just sitting on a shelf
Waiting for you
I've found sanctum in you
You walk over me like I'm not even there
I don't know what to do
To bring you here
You say you care
You say you like me
I'm beginning to believe
You don't want to be near me
I see it in your eyes
That you despise this person in front of you
That you despise the fact that I've put time in you
I just can't work through your lies
You don't know how you feel
I do
I hope you understand
My life doesn't revolve around you
No one can see my tears
No one can hear my fears
Can you tell me
How I should really be
I took a wrong turn again
No one was there for me then
I treaded down a dangerous path
I was walking towards death
You didn't tell me to stop
So did the others when the subject did drop
You think I'm an idiot for how I am
I don't give a damn
There's so many things I've wanted to say
I still can't open my mouth to this day
You think of me as a prude
I think of you as just rude
I can't find the words to express myself
So my insecurity reveals itself
I can't help how I feel
So what's the big deal
So many questions, so little time
Guiding the knife down the line
No one can see, everyone is blind
As my throat is in its bind
Look at me, take me in
The ice is growing thin
Taste me, feel me inside
I'll see you on the otherside
Corrupt me, make me yours
I'll be your slave, doing your chores
The noose hangs
The blood inside my head expands
I wait for the judgement, you look at me
This is how it was going to be
I don't cry and look towards the sky
You were only an illusion, and now I die
I listen to the sad songs day by day
Tapping my fingers to the beat, time over time
Thinking about the thoughts running through
Thinking about who was the real fool
I never found myself
I lost myself inside of me
No one sees the real me
I can't be who I want to be
The knife guides slowly through my veins
The blood pools on my wrists
The tears don't come
Now I lay, in the middle of the floor, with you
You're a mistake
Just a fucking fake
I don't think you could take
What I could extract
My blood mingles with yours
As we lay there, in your garage
No one can see the wounds
Just the facade
You're a glass clown
With a little frown
I wear this gown
You let me down
You slit my wrists
Spilled acid in my cuts
Kicked dirt into my cuts
You don't care
Get out of my fucking head
I wish you were dead
I don't want to be here
I don't want you to fear
Tease me
Tell me everything's gone
Judge me
Hurt me
Take into you what I am
Who are you to decide
Who and what I am
I can't believe you
Genocide
Mass slaughter
I can't help it
I think you'd look beautiful with blood
I wish you could feel my pain
Feel how much I hurt
I wish you could be in vain
I wish you'd fall like I did
You are lies
Telling me what I want to hear
Thinking about things
Rather than acting upon them
You are one big fake
I hope you fucking kick the bucket
No one should have you around
Slit your own throat
Take your fingers out of my skin
Stand on your own two feet
To hell with your whining
Saunter away in defeat
Your tail between your legs
Don't look at me when you leave
I don't want to see your face
Leave before I kill
You're a big lie
Now you die
Everything you did was fake
I was too late
To keep others from seeing you
Oh well, they can do what they must
You misused the trust given to you
Maybe it was you who was entrapped
I'm not the one that is fucking outdated
You keep up with others like I do
You're no god
You're a pathetic excuse
You said you didn't want to hurt me
You said you cared
Well guess what
I didn't care
You can fucking get a new life
Leave me out
You never cared in the beginning
So shut the fuck up with those lies
I hope you choke on them, asshole
You don't deserve anyone
You'll only lie to them
My friends were right
You're just a fool
A lie
A jackass
You misused me
Now you die.