"Shattered"

Shattered, that's how you left me on that cold rainy night,
Shivering in disbelief, none of it was right,
I walked on home silently tearing,
When I reached my room it felt as if my insides were searing,
A tear slid down as I remembered our times,
Our first kiss, we were perfect like lemon and lime.
One after another the tears began to flow,
I tried to refuse it but my emotions were on the go.
I was starting to drift, into my weary slumber.
Reliving the night and all its thunder.

My room faded and a wheat laden valley engulfed me,
I looked past the horizon at the billowing trees,
I watched you pull up and step out of your car,
You walked towards me , I didn't know at the time you would leave a scar.

As you approached we embraced,
The cold making me shiver and seek warmth from your face,
I nuzzled under you as we laid in the valley,
Your hands roaming over me gingerly,

The tension was becoming strong,
I couldn't hold out too long,
Closer and closer we started to lean,
Our mouths so close there was barely space between,
Gently we locked in an everlasting bliss,
But then you pulled away from that blissful kiss,

Confused and afraid I knew what was next,
You ended it there but it seemed so out of text.

I shifted in my sleep trying to waken myself,
I turned over and stared at the clock on my shelf.
Twelve o' clock AM it wasn't too late,
I told myself I could live without him.but I couldn't he was my fate,
I got up out of bed and drove to the valley of gold,
There was no turning back on this idea I was sold.
Slowly but surely I made it to the lake,
And told my self I'll do it for my sake.
Closing my eyes and falling back with a splash,
I inhaled the water and began choking in a flash,
I didn't resist this was it. the end was drawing near,
Dying was the least of my fears ,
I felt myself slowly losing consciousness
Nothing left in my body, not even a hint of piousness.

A white shining light blasted through me, was this heaven? Was I actually
dead?
All the thoughts fled from my mind when I realized that I was still in my
bed..