I lie awake
Thinking, dreaming
Wondering what’s it like
To fly high above the sky

I dream of a foreign land
Long forgotten by time
Ruled by no one
Governed by all

Within this land I see myself
A stranger, an outcast
Shunned by society
Cast out from everywhere

Realization strikes me
I am an outcast
In whichever universe
Or even in my dreams

I resign myself to this fate
I have no control over it
I cannot help it
I can but cry

Pain grips my throat
Loneliness my best friend
I have no one
Nothing to hold dear

Why am I shunned?
Why am I lonely?
Why can’t I be loved?
Why can’t I scream?

I want to scream
I want to shout
But no one would hear
No one would care

Fear and resignation
Powerful emotions to me
Drowning out all else
Making me shiver, making me cry

I often cry
Sob for myself
Sob for my soul
Sob for all else

I resign to this fate
The fate of an outcast
Shunned by society
Wanted by no one
No reason to live
No one to love
No hand to reach out for
No one….

Copyright © Chan Zhungyi® 12th June 2004