Extreme Vertigo

I want to give in - to cave and let loose
To do what I think is right for once
How I keep my sanity is beyond me
I forgot how to enter before the door shuts

Things have seemed to have fallen apart
And I'm unsure of my purpose here
Life just doesn't seem to matter at all
But I don't know if I can let into my fear

I miss the endless laughter and gaity
I want it all to be how it was before
I'm suffering from extreme vertigo
Will I be saved before I allow my blood to pour?

I picked my poison years ago
It's the pain of a broken heart
I can't fix it on my own
So my heart continues to be torn apart

I'd wish on a random, twinkling star
But I know that there is no reason
I've lost all hope for my happiness
I want to be rescued from this prison