The days are getting colder again.
Standing at the window
With the glare of the sun on my face,
I watched the plane disappear
Into the blue of a cloudless sky.
The heat was unbearable, the pain was unimaginable,
And I didn't understand.
But when I sit in the shade of The Tree,
Our tree,
A quivering mass of bark and leaves,
I realize that I still don't understand.
Tears sting.
Didn't you know that?
Or was it impossible to save me the pain of missing you?
If you were destined to push me away,
If someone else was fated to take my place,
Why couldn't it happen here?
There's no way to stop it.
The knives hurt me, the voices shout at me,
And the pain of not knowing
Is the very worst of all.
When the rest of the world doesn't try to understand me,
Why are you the only one
Who can dry my tears and wish the pain away?
I lied when I said I'd be okay,
Smiled when you kissed me good-bye,
And watched you walk away.
Maybe the desert isn't so far from here;
Maybe my heart doesn't hurt so much anymore.
And as the pale light of the moon
Sits in the darkness of the night sky,
I know that you're seeing the same beautiful heaven.
Call me when you get there.
I'll be waiting....